The Night We Met

This weekend is the anniversary of when "The Man" and I hooked up. We met 13 years ago, oh my has it really been that long? I can't believe it. Here we are in all our youth.
I am 25 in this picture and "The Man" is 26 the perfect age for two people meant to be together. We met in of all places a bar called "Dadz bar & grill" he was the bouncer or doorman depends on where your from.I had been going to this bar with my friends for quite a while.

We always flirted with each other but never really had a conversation. One night I was talking with one of the waitresses asking some info about the hottie at the door. I asked if he was dating anyone? What was he like? Things like that you know how it is you try to find out what you can about someone before you make a move to get to know them yourself.

Well I'm getting my drink on with my friends having a good time chilling chatting and all the things you do in a bar. Not paying attention to the fact that the waitress I was questioning about the hottie at the door was with said hottie telling him what I was asking. Next thing I know the hottie from the door was whispering in my ear "Next time you want to know something about me just come ask me yourself" while he was slipping me a piece of paper with his name and digits on it.

So the night goes on I keep looking at the hottie at the door sending him the look. You know the look that you give someone when you think their hot. He's looking at me the same exact way maybe you could call it love at first sight or some may even call it lust at first sight. I really don't care which one it was all I know is that he had something I just couldn't resist.At the end of my evening as I was leaving to go home I walked past him at the door and said "I will see you later" and slipped him my number.

The whole way home I was thinking about him and hoping he would call me sometime soon. I couldn't get his face out of my mind I dreamt about him I will not tell you about my dream except it was really really hotttt. So anyway I wake up the next morning go about my day. That night he called me and asked me if I wanted to go out on a date with him and of course I said yes. We went to see a movie I can't for the life of me remember the name of the movie maybe because I was overwhelmed by desire for him.After the movie we went to TGI Fridays for drinks and we have been together ever since.

Let me tell you I love him and desire him today just as much as that very first night and can not imagine my life without him.

A Mothers realization

Today started out good the sun was shining and there was a cool breeze blowing. I went out to do some errands before I had to head off to my son's school for field day. I had the radio on while I was driving and the great music just kept on coming. I had the window down and was singing and dancing. Going from place to place getting things done got home after all was complete had some lunch.

I was so excited about going to see my boy I have been going to all of his school events since he was in preschool. It's a mothers right to go to these functions to cheer him and his classmates on. It has always been such a joy for me to see him do well he is a fast runner so he is always the one who has to do all the running events.

But my day went horribly wrong see today was the day I as a mother have been dreading for 11 years (that is how old my boy is). Today I realized my boy is growing up and he didn't want me to be at his school for field day. I know this because in all of his school years he was always excited to see me come walking in the room or out on the field whatever the case may be. Today was different he avoided me just came over to me when I said "hey son how is it going". SIGH!

I sat next to him as I have always done and he didn't say a word he just looked around at all the other kids chatting with them cheering with them. Ok that's fine I can understand that is what they do but. As I sat there beside my son I could sense his uncomfortableness. So I said to him "Did you want me to hang here or go ahead and go" Know what he said he said "You can go if you want". :( That took a big chunk out of my heart.

So I said "Ok son have fun and good luck" . I was going to go and stand in the back of the room so I could wait for him to be in an event because when I had gotten there he hadn't had a turn yet. So I go to the back where I can see him but he can't see me and wait. Luckily he was in the next evet so I got a chance to se him. The event was called moon walking the kids had these metal alien looking things on their heads that they had to walk to the cone at the end while balancing these alien things on their heads. Well he was walking along and I am smiling wide watching him and low and behold he sees me and stumbles and drops the things on his head and gives me a look of disappointment.

I felt my heart break as he bent down to pick up the alien things and go back to the beginning and start all over. So I put my tail between my legs swallowed my heart and walked out of the building. I was thinking to myself the whole way to my car Oh my goodness my son doesn't need me anymore. I had to hold back the tears that I felt burning in my eyes. How could this happen? When did this happen? How do I deal with this?

I guees it's all a part of growing up and I have to learn that in private my son is mommy's baby boy. At school and in public he is my big strong man. This is something I will deal with in my own time and my own way. I still LOVE my boy.